Thursday, August 11, 2005

okay, i'm sinking into misery yet again..
i havent felt better since last two weeks. and i'm sick of myself having a friend by the name of misery-depression.
i know escaping and running away wont help at all, but right now, what i have to do is to concentrate on my examinations and so on.
i dont want to be haunted by my past memories anymore.
i want to get out.
i need help. anyone?

i definitely didnt do it on purpose. couldnt you think for me? i'm stucked in the middle, i cant just leave him alone and run to you.

life's all about maintaining a good balance with the things you're handling.
apparently my life isnt on a good balance. i'm lost when i speak abt my family.
feel so damned bloody bad when i talk abt my relationship with others. not to even mention about studies. i am so not alright.
i say i am cause i dont want to add to anyone's problem.
i super agree with the fact that everyone has their own set of problems.
this is my side of reason for keeping things to myself.
i'm under counselling, anyone bothered to ask.
i'm such a fool, i know. i refuse to let anyone into my heart.
but its not what i want. i dont want my best best friend to walk out of me one fine day and i'm left hanging all by myself. i certainly dont want that.
i need a friend too. i'm human, remember?
i'm not the most pathetic person at all,i'm aware of that. so, i dont go around telling ppl that i'm down and whatever shit. i just want a friend who stands by my side and listen to me, not one who is so kaypoh and just wanna know whats up with me.
no one really understand how i feels.
no one will.